First fall

2 weeks ago in KK...
A split second turn to throw your nappy away..
A loud thud on the floor followed by a piercing cry..
2 hearts that stopped beating for a moment..
You facedown on the floor

That was your first flip and your first fall from the bed. I wonder if this is the reason for you not to roll/flip since then?

Home Sweet Home

The journey was not as bad as expected and his cries were always controllable. Our little fella was a lot more restless than his counterpart Isaac who travelled together with his mummy and us. Our Isaac woke him a few times with his cries when he and his mummy was asleep and I was so embarassed, trying to hush him all the time. Oh well, it could have been any other baby crying :)
It's definitely fun to be back in Malaysia for Richard and I but not for him. He caught a cold from me just before leaving and the long journey, jet lag=lack of sleep, and change in weather was just a little too much for him and he fell ill with fever for the first time.. Thank God he was quite good through it all. It must have been tough learning about humidity, sweat and heat for the first time going through a fever :) Air-conditioning is a life saver! On the other hand, he's enjoying wearing almost nothing and being constantly fussed about.

We are definitely enjoying being pampered and eating :) The joys of Chinese New Year!

3, 2, 1 and its jet off!!

3 more days and we will be taking you on your first flight back to Malaysia, to see your great-grandparents, grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins, to enjoy the sun, to eat, to go out at night, to shop.. the things to do's endless!! I am very excited but at the same time anxious about the journey, and all the adaptations that you will have to make. The plus side is jet lag should not be too bad for you since you wake up so many times in the night anyway :) Just have to get you to go back to sleep in between the feeds..

This will have to be short since its very late and I have just started packing today. Well, not really packing, just piling all the things that we will need to bring home on the bed in the guest room. Its really a sight to behold.

Social Activities

After the first cancellation, the baby massage classes started. It was still snowing the day of the first session but I was adamant to go after I called and found out it was going ahead. Surprisingly everybody turned up despite the snow. Maybe all mothers want a reason to go out?? You were very quiet but I think you enjoyed it. The best thing is you napping after that in the car seat. It was the first time you napped without me either holding you or in bed. You have been less quiet since then in the sessions but still very well behaved. Not surprising, since you always are when out :)

The same group also went for walks and we went to one in Calderstone Park. Another reason to get us out of the house for some fresh, cold air. I got to know a BBC with parents from Malaysia and we just clicked. If not for going back to Malaysia, we will definitely be going for more walks.

Friday is the BF support group and we go after getting you weighed. Think the best thing you like about it is the amount of toys available, although you still do not dare and is not sure how to go get them yet.

There's also the swimming classes. However, since it was bitterly cold, I have not brought you for any and its too late now as we are going back. It will be much more fun swimming in the sun in Malaysia though.

Thanks to the children centres we have been kept occupied recently. But, there will be lots more activities and fun waiting for you back in Malaysia. Just counting down the days now. The sad thing is not being able to go for these events when we get back coz I have to go back to work.

New developments

Last Saturday was the first time you flipped (actually more of a slow roll) while on your tummy to your back. I missed it the first time when your daddy shouted but thank God you did it again. Am so proud of you!! Now am waiting for you to do it the other way around.

There are actually quite a lot of changes turning from 3 to 4 months old (yesterday). You can play with your saliva, gurgle/babble alot more, grab toys above you in the playgym, amuse yourself, grab your legs and swing it left and right, look for me and smile when other people are carrying you, and flap both arms wildly when you see me approaching you in bed (wanting me to carry??).

On the bad side, you've been waking up 4-5x at night. Why, oh why??

Behind the scenes

The feeling of pride and joy swells up inside when I get compliments of how cute and adorable you are when you smile, laugh or play. However, I now know why all parents smile when they get these compliments - because behind these cute moments lie hours of tears, frustration and feeling of helplessness, and only we know how hard it is.

Yes.. today you were very naughty and was terrible :(

When will the saga end?

You're nearly 4 months now. On one hand it's good you're getting more inquisitive but on the other, breast-feeding you has become a battleground in the daytime. You will sometimes only drink for 2-3 mins before delatching and either look at me with the sweetest grin to babble or start screaming. It has made me wonder a few times whether it's because my milk supply is going down. So feeding is nearly all the time now with breaks for you to play or nap. Feeding before you nap is the best coz its always the longest. But it means I have to constantly stimulate you to wake you up, until I think you have had enough, then will allow you to sleep on. I know this is a bad habit and I will pay for it later but it works for now, so will stick to it.

Thus, I actually don't mind waking up at night to feed as it's more straight forward. Wake up, feed for about 30-40 mins and then back to sleep again.

Amidst all this complaining, your antics when breastfeeding are so cute and makes feeding bearable. For example, you will thump my breasts with your hands after a while of feeding and I wonder if this is to try and increase the flow, when you delatch and smile at me, you gurgle saliva and makes the cutest noise and when very hungry, you open your mouth widely, and move about to look for the breast, reminding me of a hungry bird.